As I lay here next to you and listen to the sweet sounds of your breathing, I am overcome by a feeling of fuzzy love. I think back on the day, and I cannot help but giggle. While doing my usual morning workout, you decided to join in a little more than usual. Normally you will come by for a few little smooches, or to crawl under me, and then you are off to your next adventure. But, today you were much more interested in actually doing the moves. I wished so hard that I could record with my mind what I was seeing. While it was a hilarious moment, it also made me realize how much you really watch my every move. It made me realize how much living my life, really will mold your life. To be completely honest, thinking about all of that, kind of freaked me out. It is too much power, and I barely feel like a grown-up, let alone someone that should be allowed to mold a beautiful new mind like yours. Then, I think about how awesome you are, and it eases my concern. ;)
I can spend my entire day just sitting back and watching you explore. Today I did my best to allow you to play on your own, and boy was it hilarious. First, you spent the morning playing with your cars and animals, and your little stories were amazing. Then, we went to the beach and you built castles, and splashed in the water. When we got home, it was time for bath (more because you picked up goose poop and smashed it than the fact we went to the beach), and watching you talk to your minions, and tell more stories was fascinating. Your mind is beautiful, amazing, and ever growing. You are so smart, and a total little sponge. While listening to you talk I heard a few things that I say a lot, as well as watched you "parent" some of your toys. You have to know what everything is, and are starting to dabble with trying to figure out how everything works. You have more questions than I have answers, which just means we are learning some things together. Let me just tell you, thank goodness for ALEXA and SIRI!! :)
I watch you, and realize how easy it is to get so distracted by life, that you stop exploring the world around you. I hope that you never get so wrapped up in things, that you lose your sense of adventure. I hope that you remain fearless, and continue to meet things head on. I do my best to try to hide my anxiety and worry from you. I do not want you to live the life of worry and fear that I have, and I definitely do not want you to learn those things from me. I want you to see all that you want to see, and do all that you want to do. I hope that nothing ever stops you from reaching every goal you set for yourself. I hope that you know, that no matter what, I will always love you, and I will always do all that I can to ensure that you have anything your little heart desires. If I can instill those little things in you, then I will consider it a parenting win!! :)
You are the most amazing creature in the world!!
Until our next adventure. I love you my Little Bear!
Momma
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